Michael Sullivan

A tribute to Road to Perdition
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They say life is complicated
They pose to be composed
They complain at our levity
Harangue their philosophy
Forever I never knew my destiny
This was the road laid in front
This was the life I chose
Had to do one’s dirty work
At times we killed for one’s sin
Most times he killed for his fun
We all cherished our money and gold
We danced and drank too loose our senses
At times I found ourselves to be too cold
I was always taught to be bold
No matter how hard I tried
I realized my worst dreams coming true
Though he’s mine I dint want him to be me
I was once adventurous and unafraid as a kid
This nature of him as brought him behind my back
For no fault of his own
For every mistake of my negligence
He happened to be one among
Consequently we lost our loved ones


No hometown, left with nothing
We were on the run
Run so we may live to see the morning sun
Without knowing a Lucifer was following us
Almost got myself killed
Would have brought my dreaded childhood upon him
Every moment turned out pathetic
Every second I became lethargic
The very thought put me down
And kept me on my heels
Somehow I survived for him
Not knowing when a bullet might strike me
Not knowing when I might leave him alone
We couldn’t run anymore
Not for me, but for him
I chose what I was taught
I chose to pull the trigger
I chose to do one’s dirty work
Only this time it was for me

I killed like I have never killed before
All the while I found myself to be impassive
Dunno whether if it’s right or wrong
I was left with no choice
I had to protect him
He was my son
My father once told me..
that none of us will see heaven
Through the Road to Perdition
As I have always been
Doubtful and questioning
My name is Michael Sullivan
Was I a good man?
Was I a good father?
They will make their own reckoning
They will make their own decisions
They will have their own answers
As for me..
Ever through the horrid times
God put a smile on my face
Coz I knew my son wouldn’t be me
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Swing

Summer has gone
And our sun has cooled
I wake up to my mama’s scream
She shouts all night to sleep
She shouts all day to wake
And I smile as I look into her eyes
Now that’s how my days kicks off
I hold to my spirit somehow

Yesterday I was down and out
I locked up myself and lived alone
I used read but never followed
I used to shout and I was soo hollow
Well there are some people who are lost
They claim they don’t remember me
While I remember the times we had
While I remember the things we shared
Some people ignored me to oblivion
While I still smiled and took care to get their attention
I loved one girl too much
No matter what she does
No matter how she was
I cannot accept her choice
I found her to be churlish
She claimed I’m unattractive
While I found her to be too talkative
Then I decided to shut myself away
Sitting all alone
Disturbed and thoughts came along
I decided to take a walk
I stumbled onto these beautiful eyes
She was with another guy
Before she got onto her bike
She turned to me and smiled
Twenty four hours since we met
My sights on you had been set
Though it was just for a second
I forgot my past and I moved on
Dunno who you are, you made me believe
Dunno where you’re from, you gave back my smile
For all those out there who’re down and out

Sing with me
There will be some sign
This will make our life realign
We go back and forth
That’s how swing works
Remember not to loose your grip
Life is a Swing
Lets get on with it, lets swing high

Break Away

Sitting in my room
I feel truly alone
Gazing at my monitor
I tremble and falter
I see light, but it’s dark
I see pics, but it’s blurred
Everything seems to be fine around me
Everything seems to be wrong inside me
I know its right
I know it’s for my own good
My future at stake, I loose my mind
I hope I’m young before I die

She made me unstable
She made me motionless
She took away my smile
Now she lives miles apart
Across Nations
Across Oceans
Across different species and cultures
I search for my long lost soul
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha
The dam broke open inside me
She flooded my thoughts
Some kind of brain damage
Some kind of unstoppable feelings
She has left me reeling
Hell yeah
It hurts me to see your smile
It hurts me to look into your eyes
But I believe we meant our goodbyes
Such a saint you act like
Such a whore you behave like
I burn away your pictures with my smokes
Hell yeah
I’m not attractive enough for you
But I’m getting to grip with what you had said
You always doubt that there is a better man
I doubt what runs through your veins
I know there can’t be a better way
I don’t want to stay
I hope in time I forget
Let’s pretend like we never met
Why don’t we break up
There is nothing left to say
I’ve got my eyes shut
Praying they won’t strain
I punch the walls, Screaming BREAK AWAY in the rain
Their droplets extinguishing my smoke
Like your face I throw the bud away
I hope you blow away
I hope…you blow away

One Shot

One shot is all that you’re left with
You better take it down with what’s left
Or it’s gonna be too late to even dream about it
One dream is what that means most
One life you’ve got to live with it
So don’t think too much
You get it on, get it right
Don’t leave control of your sight
Aim high, aim right
Pull the trigger, set the target
Take it down, get the bull’s eye
You need to get it even
Coz there isn’t much of a time
One chance is all that’s given
Don’t push yourself to oblivion
One life you’ve got to make it mean something
If you don’t trust your balls, you’ll deserve to die
They won’t even remember your name
There would be no one to even cry
One shot is all that you’re left with
One dream you’ve got, so dream high
Take your chances
Believe in yourself
Don’t bother too much beside
One life is all that you’ve got
Live it to your most
There ain’t any second chances
No room for remorse or forgiveness
Coz
One Shot is all that you’re left with

Dark Side Of Me

Hello, is there anyone inside me

I keep asking myself

I know I am self aware

It’s just that I’m lost somewhere

Can’t you see that under my smile?

Can’t you feel that under my eyes?

Can’t you see that I was lost all the while

I know I’m doing great

I just don’t feel inside

For once I would love to feel the truth

For once I would love to be myself

I realized something I’ve never felt before

I’ve realized the Dark Side of Me



I keep quiet all long

Inside me there is a war going on

And you are at its stake

I’m sorry I couldn’t fake

Sometimes I can’t handle it

Sometimes I can’t stand it one bit

You give me a smile

You kick for a mile

I know the truth deep inside

I just can’t believe it

I just don’t want to believe it

And so I wanna change myself

For once I'm gonna stab you to death

I worry whether I could live with myself

I search for a heart

I find mine to be chopped

Baby there is no blood in my veins

It’s filled with your poison

I’ve completely lost myself

Thanks to you

Now I’m no human

For once I would like to

look into your eyes

For once I would like to

feel your warmth

For once I would like to

see if I mean something

For once I would like to

see if you know me

For once I would like to be myself

And not put myself under jeopardy

I dunno if I can be myself

I dunno how much it’s gonna cost me

For once I would like to

see you say goodbye through your eyes

For now I know

There is a Dark Side of Me

Thanks to you

I feel the Dark Side of Me

Unsung Hero

When you are one of the few

You need to carry your crew

You need to taste your own blood

When you dunno what’s right or wrong

And your answers aren’t really good

They tend to disturb your mood

Whether it is wet or dry

And your days aren’t bright

You feel the thunder strikes

It strikes hard

And you feel no noise

You feel full when you are empty

It strikes hard and you’re left with no dignity

It tries to set your heart in flames

But there is nothing left but ashes

You forget what lonely really means

Your smoke you to death

But it is only your body that feels

You keep rocking in your chair

Gazing at the walls you simply glare

And see no color

Nor any light

You’re a blind man with sight

You are an Unsung Hero

You’ve got nothing left to do

You’ve got nothing left to give



You speak in a language filled with silence

Sometimes some things are better when left unsaid



When you’re one of the few to land on your feet

What do you do to make ends meet?

Teach

Make him mad

Make him sad

Make him add two and two

Make him dance in thin ice

Make him me

Make him you

Make him do what you want him to

Make him laugh

Make him cry

Make him lie down and die

For he is the Unsung Hero

He has got nothing left to do

He is the Unsung Hero

He is the Unsung Hero…

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Mr.Nice Guy

I’m a dreamer
And when I wake
You can’t take my spirit
It’s my dreams you take
It seems to be over
But I fall again
Since I tried again
My heart was blinded by you
You find it too hard to open your eyes
I am here for you, if you only care
Oh my Oh my
It is tough being Mr. Nice Guy
Oh boy Oh boy
It is tough being me

I wanna swim across the river
But I find it too hard to leave things behind
I tried to be silent
When I had lots to say
But then you wouldn’t show me a way
You came into my life
Filled it with hopes
Then you take away my dreams
You left me with nothing but void
Now you try to play Jesus
You show me all your mercy
What do you want from me?
I just can’t understand
Why you find it so hard to believe
Now it kills me to be a friend
And I can’t seem to mend my ways
I’m too easy on giving
But you take advantage
I know things wont change
I know I need to stop
I have to leave it behind
I know I don’t deserve this
I’m convinced by my mind
I don’t want to be so kind
People say be casual
People say do change
I can’t even try to be angry
I find it too hard to say goodbye
It hurts deep beneath
Why don’t you realize?
It hurts to see my reflection
Coz it’s a mirage
Now I’ve lost myself
I hate to be myself
Oh my Oh my
It is tough being Mr. Nice Guy
Oh my Oh my
It’s tough to live my life
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